i havent had enough i guess... i just need to be more patient....

Life has never been this bad to me… I never felt so bad and damn depress… sometimes, we should know that things will never happen as what we think and hope. I think I had enough, but once I try to think again, its only the beginning, the beginning of the hardest journey of my life, the path that I choose, the road that I took… had bring me to this part of my life….

Being very stupid not thinking wisely, hoping that everything will be so much fun and enjoying, but the fact is im not happy at all.. im scared, im numb, I lost in the world of my own.. The world that I created, now it’s a nightmare to me… there is nobody to talk to, nobody to help me.. it’s only me, myself and i… trying hard to push myself…

I cant wait to leave, I cant wait to get a new life…. I am desperately wanna run away… run the fast as I can, to the place that might be give me some peace.. some light… I just wish that I am strong enough to stay and facing this moment… moment of life……

At this point of time, I just pay to god, for my safety, for my strength, for me to be strong and wise thinker, for something good. And pray for a better life…… I believe that god will show me the way….


For my mum, love you so much, I will never let you know that ur girl is having the tough time. I now that deep inside me, I have you…

For my sistas, thanx for understand and sharing my prob… I love you…..

For my frens….. thank you for giving me support… to yall I rely on…..

For somebody out there, somewhere somehow, wishes that you will always be fine, may happiness be with you always….
I LOVE YOU…